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I am now on a mixture of Keppra and Topimate since the Adderal and Zoloft that were added increased my seizure activity. The bad part is that the recent raise in the Keppra had some side effects. All I want is to be able to drive and work like a normal person. Is that so hard to ask? Apparently it is because of... ugh! The side effects, it seems to be the side effects, pretty much ruined my holidays. I will either get to try more medication mixtures or they will stop since my body doesn't react to medication very well... I am still in limbo, the doctor isn't sure if it's epilepsy or psychological. That is because they can't find anything abn

Go to doctor, the psych one. He asks me why I went off the med's: Adderal and Zoloft. Which were being used for my psych issues. Since the guy can't treat a patient if they aren't on drugs. Not that he did anything except put me on drugs. I had to go off the med's because they were causing an increase in seizure activity. They helped except it was like putting a bandade on a gaping wound. ...anyways, in his office. He is asking why I went off the med's. Trying to tell me I needed to go back on before resorting in trying to guilt me into going back on. Since, medication can't cause a increase in seizure activity. (Lies!) Fend him off where he

More stuff happened as usual. My birthday for instance took forever to decide because I felt so guilty for bothering people and scared of the day in particular. Ended up being a small get together with my immediate family and a small outing with my boyfriend and my friend. Drank some wine and vodka mixed with XXX Vitamin Water (creating a mixture that reminded me of cough syrup.) The day ended as I feared with some seizures. Then I got a job, sorta, being my mom's assistant. Which was cool at first then it took a turn for the worst, boring. At least at a low level job you do stuff with your hands. Then it also made me mad reminding me of the